Sometimes, I think it is all a big mistake. Stop those gremlins!
1. I think that I always make mistakes with money. The first mistake I made that involved money was not realizing that I needed it for the future, and presently, the “cupboard,” while not bare, is lacking. This doesn’t mean I am destitute; I am just less comfortable. Money is generally a trigger for me on all levels. Buying food and clothing, renting a Zipcar, planning a trip- all of these expenses make me have a pit in my stomach and twists in my brain. Most recently, it is the use of credit cards; I received a few cards as I repaired my credit, and now, they up my limits, and I get new preapprovals daily. I seem to worry that there will never be enough money.
2. I feel like my parents dealt with mistakes relatively fairly; this is hindsight. As a child, I felt that mistakes were something to be ashamed of when I crashed my new car and didn’t have insurance on it (a car my Dad bought me, telling me to thank my Mom because that was money he was going to give her a European trip with.) I ran away from home and hid for a bit, then went home and curled up in the fetal position for hours. My parents basically said, “No one was hurt, and when you save, you can get another car.” I also made mistakes in sports, but my Dad, as an athlete himself, was understanding. I think my parents were pretty good with mistakes, and I am not still.
3. I have made many mistakes in my professional lives. I could write a book on those alone, but looking at my most recent professional mistake. I was let go from a position last May, and my mistake was not following what I had been asked to the letter. I was not doing anything detrimental to the company; it was just a personality conflict. I was trying to pick up where my supervisor was not. I was attempting to help clients, and it wasn’t supposed to be that way. The way it was handled was I was fired and let go. The outcomes for me are that I went back to work at the pharmacy part-time, I started to collect my SSI, and I have tried to work on writing, painting, and getting an MFA.
4. It would shift the focus to actual production and people collaborating without fear.
5. While I have openly spoken about my alcoholism, it is one thing that using ruined one of my careers for me. My problem with this is that when I am a little bit involved with the sport and people, I get upset and think where I would be now if….That is so self-defeating. I would not have gotten sober, and my “working” life might not have been as “productive” in some eyes. I wouldn't have discovered I can paint, shoot photography, or get a Master's from an outstanding school. And now I wouldn’t be on the fringes of getting an MFA. I need to think more about where I am and what good things have happened.
Sometimes, I think it is all a big mistake. Stop those gremlins!
1. I think that I always make mistakes with money. The first mistake I made that involved money was not realizing that I needed it for the future, and presently, the “cupboard,” while not bare, is lacking. This doesn’t mean I am destitute; I am just less comfortable. Money is generally a trigger for me on all levels. Buying food and clothing, renting a Zipcar, planning a trip- all of these expenses make me have a pit in my stomach and twists in my brain. Most recently, it is the use of credit cards; I received a few cards as I repaired my credit, and now, they up my limits, and I get new preapprovals daily. I seem to worry that there will never be enough money.
2. I feel like my parents dealt with mistakes relatively fairly; this is hindsight. As a child, I felt that mistakes were something to be ashamed of when I crashed my new car and didn’t have insurance on it (a car my Dad bought me, telling me to thank my Mom because that was money he was going to give her a European trip with.) I ran away from home and hid for a bit, then went home and curled up in the fetal position for hours. My parents basically said, “No one was hurt, and when you save, you can get another car.” I also made mistakes in sports, but my Dad, as an athlete himself, was understanding. I think my parents were pretty good with mistakes, and I am not still.
3. I have made many mistakes in my professional lives. I could write a book on those alone, but looking at my most recent professional mistake. I was let go from a position last May, and my mistake was not following what I had been asked to the letter. I was not doing anything detrimental to the company; it was just a personality conflict. I was trying to pick up where my supervisor was not. I was attempting to help clients, and it wasn’t supposed to be that way. The way it was handled was I was fired and let go. The outcomes for me are that I went back to work at the pharmacy part-time, I started to collect my SSI, and I have tried to work on writing, painting, and getting an MFA.
4. It would shift the focus to actual production and people collaborating without fear.
5. While I have openly spoken about my alcoholism, it is one thing that using ruined one of my careers for me. My problem with this is that when I am a little bit involved with the sport and people, I get upset and think where I would be now if….That is so self-defeating. I would not have gotten sober, and my “working” life might not have been as “productive” in some eyes. I wouldn't have discovered I can paint, shoot photography, or get a Master's from an outstanding school. And now I wouldn’t be on the fringes of getting an MFA. I need to think more about where I am and what good things have happened.