1. Recently, as you know, I have been looking at returning to school to get another degree. I was looking at school versus continuing to apply for career positions that, quite frankly, it didn’t seem they wanted to employ a 65-year-old male. I had resume writing that I had in a paused way because writing meant you had to sit and do it. I was too busy. I rediscovered my writing and my voice, which is changing and growing. I applied to several schools, one of which was a “bucket list” school. You know that school that you can look at and say, “I got in, and you didn’t.” It's ego-driven. Over several months, I was looking at this, and my judgment says if you got in, you have to go, and my assessment says what’s the best thing for you. Presently, I am waiting for one more school to accept or reject me, but I think, assessing my goals and my my situation, going to VCFA is the best path for me.
2. Presently, I have to say I have been feeling dissatisfied with life in general. I do not feel like I am “moving forward,” whatever that is. One thing I have learned through my time at NU and other experiences is that my life is NOT a straightforward path, and nor should it be. It is just hard not to “judge” when others seem to be doing “better.” Whatever that is. I have a high school friend who watched me on Facebook, and when we saw each other after 30 or so years. He told me I do a lot of exciting things. (I do) He then told me how his wife hates him, only 1 of his three children speaks to and the one that does, “Is my Gay son. “ Then there is more, but not for me to say, but the kicker is apparently he is worth about 50 million bucks. Went to college, graduated, got married, has a great career. My point here is that if I judge myself by others, I am not assessing what is good in my life and career choices.
3. Gee, I am not too sure at the moment that I have a “professional life” as it is judged by the “norms.” What is important to me is to try to be consistent in how I work with others, treat other people, and try to complete “the project,” whatever that is.
4. I hate the 5-year question. But here goes: I would like to see myself actively involved in the pursuit of my artistic endeavors. I don’t judge my works; I let them speak for themselves. If I try to judge my works, then I get caught up in “Is it right” or “Is it good enough?” Kind of like the Andy Warhol quote about creating: Just do it.
5. Again this is an area I beat myself up for, I lost a career because of being an active alcoholic. I still judge myself a lot and when I am around things that remind me of that career, I get upset. That is me judging me. Not taking a moment to assess the fact that my bad behavior lead me on another path. This path has been not what I expected. I got sober, I have not had a drink ort used drugs in over 23 years. That is HUGE. I have dabbled in many different things, from band manager, to chef, to student, to painter, to photographer to author and poet. When I assess that it isn’t all that bad. I need to recognize that, and sometimes I forget that.
1. Recently, as you know, I have been looking at returning to school to get another degree. I was looking at school versus continuing to apply for career positions that, quite frankly, it didn’t seem they wanted to employ a 65-year-old male. I had resume writing that I had in a paused way because writing meant you had to sit and do it. I was too busy. I rediscovered my writing and my voice, which is changing and growing. I applied to several schools, one of which was a “bucket list” school. You know that school that you can look at and say, “I got in, and you didn’t.” It's ego-driven. Over several months, I was looking at this, and my judgment says if you got in, you have to go, and my assessment says what’s the best thing for you. Presently, I am waiting for one more school to accept or reject me, but I think, assessing my goals and my my situation, going to VCFA is the best path for me.
2. Presently, I have to say I have been feeling dissatisfied with life in general. I do not feel like I am “moving forward,” whatever that is. One thing I have learned through my time at NU and other experiences is that my life is NOT a straightforward path, and nor should it be. It is just hard not to “judge” when others seem to be doing “better.” Whatever that is. I have a high school friend who watched me on Facebook, and when we saw each other after 30 or so years. He told me I do a lot of exciting things. (I do) He then told me how his wife hates him, only 1 of his three children speaks to and the one that does, “Is my Gay son. “ Then there is more, but not for me to say, but the kicker is apparently he is worth about 50 million bucks. Went to college, graduated, got married, has a great career. My point here is that if I judge myself by others, I am not assessing what is good in my life and career choices.
3. Gee, I am not too sure at the moment that I have a “professional life” as it is judged by the “norms.” What is important to me is to try to be consistent in how I work with others, treat other people, and try to complete “the project,” whatever that is.
4. I hate the 5-year question. But here goes: I would like to see myself actively involved in the pursuit of my artistic endeavors. I don’t judge my works; I let them speak for themselves. If I try to judge my works, then I get caught up in “Is it right” or “Is it good enough?” Kind of like the Andy Warhol quote about creating: Just do it.
5. Again this is an area I beat myself up for, I lost a career because of being an active alcoholic. I still judge myself a lot and when I am around things that remind me of that career, I get upset. That is me judging me. Not taking a moment to assess the fact that my bad behavior lead me on another path. This path has been not what I expected. I got sober, I have not had a drink ort used drugs in over 23 years. That is HUGE. I have dabbled in many different things, from band manager, to chef, to student, to painter, to photographer to author and poet. When I assess that it isn’t all that bad. I need to recognize that, and sometimes I forget that.
Love the background and Amber storyline. Very helpful!